Sunday, April 8, 2012

Finally Married

Me and Bingley feel like we were meant for each other. I feel that I was meant to be on his side, and he was meant to make me smile everyday. He is the greatest man that I have ever met, and I am really lucky that he has chosen me to be his wife for the rest of his life. I know that we will have a great future with each other because I love him and he loves me. I would also like to congratulate my sister marrying Darcy, for I know that they will have a great life with each other.

Proposals

I cannot believe that Bingley proposed to me! He is the sweetest and most gentle man that I have ever known! I know that my father will be greatful that we are going to get married because he is a generous man, and he treats my family very well. Also, my sister Lizzy is going to marry Darcy; this was very shocking for all of us, for we did not know that Lizzy had feelings towards him. I knew something was going on between them; I cannot wait until we both become wives!

Conversation with Bingley

I knew my mother was planning something out when she invited Bingley for dinner. Once Bingley and I had the chance to be alone, we started to talk about our lives and how we were doing. It gives me great joy that he is doing so well. He always has his words on complimenting me and making me feel like a beautiful woman. What a great gentleman Bingley is.

Bingley and Darcy at dinner

When I first saw Bingley walking on our doorstep, I have to admit that my heart dropped for a while. It has been a while that I have seen him; ever since he had left me. Even though I felt a bit uncomfortable at the beginning of dinner, I still showed respect towards him and talked to him as if we were just friends. It was very pleasant having him and Darcy over for dinner. Oh, how my mother embarrassed me a but when she invited them for dinner again.

Monday, April 2, 2012

Lydia's Visit

I have to say that I was a bit worried when Lizzy and I went to pick up Lydia and Wickham. I did not know how my father would react if he were to see Lydia one more time. Once Lydia arrived, it has been noisy all of the time. She has offended me several times, but that is Lydia just being herself. I am starting to get stressed out a little bit; I just hope that these days can pass by fast so that we can all just live with our lives once again and be happy.

Sunday, April 1, 2012

Lydia Is Getting Married

Now that Lydia is going to get married, my mom has not stopped talking about her and Wickham. During our dinner, my mother was deciding the place that they should stay at. I did not know that my father was not willing to see Lydia again. He should be a little bit less harsh on Lydia; she is young and is feeling true love for the first time. I was very shocked when he stated that he did not want them living in Longbourn.

Reactions

My mother reacted with such great joy from hearing what the letter read. I am so glad to see her with happiness after seeing how depressed she was becoming. It was very considerate for my uncle to drop charges on Wickham. Everybody deserves second chances don't they? Oh how I love seeing my mother filled with joy, for I had to calm her down.

Saturday, March 31, 2012

Great News

My father finally came home from his search of Lydia, and I am glad that he came home safe. I do not think that he should feel guilt of this whole situation, for I believe it was the right choice of letting Lydia go to Brighton. After my father's return, I was excited that we have received news from my uncle. I am so glad to hear that Lydia is going to get married with Wickham! This is great news because now we can all forget about what Mr. Wickham has done and let him have a fresh start.

Sunday, March 25, 2012

Judgments

I am glad that Lizzy arrived home safely. I have been waiting for ever since we received the news of Lydia. When we finally had time to ourselves, I showed her the letter that Lydia wrote about her leaving. I informed Lizzy about my opinion of Wickham; he may have changed into a real gentleman when he started seeing Lydia. A negative comment from a person does not mean that Wickham is such a horrible person.

Family Issues

I am waiting for my sister Lizzy to come back as soon as possible. We need her to fill in the emptiness of the house; my father left to search for Lydia, and my mother will not come out of her room. Wickham does not seem like he is willing to harm my little sister, but knowing Lizzy, I know that she is thinking ill of Wickham. I hope everything goes back to normal in this house after we have heard news from Lydia. I know that she is following her heart and leading herself to happiness.

Scotland?

It was early morning when my family and I had received the dreadful news about my sister Lydia leaving us. I did not believe the fact that she left off with Wickham; this man was negatively described by Lizzy when she arrived from the Collins. It is said that Lydia and Wickham were to travel to Scotland. My family did not know what kind of a man Wickham truly is. I believe that we should just forget about the past and see how it all turns out; Wickham may turn out to be a nice man.

Babysitting

After my sister, my aunt and my uncle left, I stayed home to look after my cousins. They are the most adorable children I have ever seen, and they seem to have a great affection towards me. Just the other day, one of the girls asked me to do her hair because she loved how I did mine. I was very touched by her comment and made her look cute; she loved the way I made her hair look and thank me by giving me a great big hug. We are off to a great start in spending time with each other.

Monday, March 19, 2012

Two Faced Man

I cannot believe what Lizzy told me today! Mr. Wickham is not the gentleman that I first met, for this is such big news for me. Now I understand why my sister was so anxious to tell me something. Also, Mr. Darcy proposed to her; Mr. Darcy has true feelings for Lizzy, and Lizzy refused to marry him? Poor Mr. Darcy is probably suffering right now; it is not his fault that my sister did not know the truth about all of these lies of Mr. Wickham.

Going Out

So far it has been a great day by spending it with my lovely sisters. Oh how I missed their humor and all the non-sense they talk about. I was really shocked when my sister Lydia informed us about Mr. Wickham not being with Mary King. Mr. Wickham and Mary may have had a hard time dealing with each other which is pretty sad. I wonder if Lizzy meant all of those horrible comments about Wickham; he does not seem a bad gentleman if you ask me.

Sunday, March 18, 2012

Great Joy

I finally got to see my sister after such a long time. Her appearance is still wonderful as the last time I have seen her; she is very beautiful in so many ways. When I was talking to her, she had this look in her face that she wanted to inform me of something. I hope she tells me soon so that I can know what type of information she has to tell me. I wonder if it is something that has to do with her and her trip she made to the Collins' house.

Waiting

It is almost time for me to go back home. I have not seen my family in such a long time. I wonder if they hope that I have changed my feelings for Bingley. I do not really know what is going on with them right now. Well, I better start planning in what to wear when my lovely sister arrives.

Sunday, March 11, 2012

What Is Going On?

I do not know what to feel anymore about this situation. I am starting to think about my true feelings towards Bingley; I keep thinking if it was ever meant to be. Was I really in love or was this just a phase that I was going through? Did Bingley even have true feelings for me or was he just using me? I am not sure of my feelings of Bingley are.

Rainy Day

It was a rainy day today, and I tried not to remember that day I went to the Bingleys. Even though I became very ill, I have to admit that I was glad that I had the honor to stay at the Bingleys' house. I would enjoy every minute Bingley would spend with me. He seemed to put me in a great mood when I felt like I had head aches. Oh how I miss those days, and all because my mother had sent me to their house on a rainy day.

Letters

I keep sending letters to my sister Lizzy and I hope she understands what I am going through. I tried not to show that I was still in pain. Even though I wish that she knows what I am going through, I do not want to make her feel worried. I feel like I have nothing inside of me; as if I could not show or express what is going on in my heart. I want my sister to know that I am trying to be my normal self again.

Wonder

I do not know what to do; I keep thinking to myself what I am going to do for my future. Not having Mr. Bingley in my life is like not having a purpose to live. Every morning I wake up with him on my mind and just wonder why I can not be with him. Why would he leave me when we I know that we both had the same feelings towards each other? I just do not understand what went wrong.